Belleville Bulvar\u0131\u2019nda (Paris, 1918)\u2019de bir kad\u0131n, Arnavut kald\u0131r\u0131ml\u0131 k\u00f6\u015fe ba\u015f\u0131nda \u015fark\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 s\u00f6yleyedursun…<\/p>\n
Paris sokaklar\u0131n\u0131n portresi aynen \u015f\u00f6yledir: \u201c\u00d6yle sokaklar var ki, \u015ferefsizlikle damgalanan bir insan kadar haysiyetleri k\u0131r\u0131kt\u0131r. Sonra kibar sokaklar, sadece namuslu sokaklar, ahl\u00e2k\u00ee durumu hakk\u0131nda halk\u0131n hen\u00fcz fikir sahibi olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131 gen\u00e7 sokaklar, en kart dullardan daha ge\u00e7kin sokaklar, itibar\u0131 yerinde sokaklar, daima temiz sokaklar, daima kirli sokaklar; i\u015f\u00e7i, hamarat, bezirg\u00e2n sokaklar…\u201d Acep birazdan soluk bulacak \u015feyler bu sokaklar\u0131n hangisinde ya\u015fanm\u0131\u015ft\u0131r?<\/p>\n
Etrafta daha yeni yeni ko\u015fmaya ba\u015flam\u0131\u015f, haylazl\u0131\u011f\u0131n s\u0131rr\u0131na ermeye \u00e7al\u0131\u015fan \u00e7ocuklar, i\u015fportac\u0131lar, zerzevat\u00e7\u0131lar ve Frans\u0131z cemiyetinden \u00e7e\u015fit \u00e7e\u015fit insanlar. Kimi art niyetli, kimi h\u00e2lis… \u0130kisi erkek \u00fc\u00e7 \u00e7ocuk, bir d\u00fckk\u00e2n\u0131n merdivenlerinde gevezelik yap\u0131yordu. K\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck mek\u00e2n\u0131n sahibi, orta ya\u015flarda bir herif sa\u011f aya\u011f\u0131yla, belki de \u201cVer yans\u0131n!\u201d diyerek yap\u0131\u015ft\u0131rd\u0131 erkek \u00e7ocuklardan birinin s\u0131rt\u0131na tekmeyi! Zaten da\u011f\u0131n\u0131k oturan \u00e7ocuklar \u00e7il yavrusu gibi da\u011f\u0131l\u0131verdiler. Erkek \u00e7ocuklar arkas\u0131na bile bakmadan gittiler… Gidecekleri bir yerleri vard\u0131. Minimini k\u0131z \u00e7ocu\u011fu ise d\u00fckk\u00e2n\u0131n az \u00f6tesine gidip a\u011flamaya koyuldu. T\u00fcm bunlara \u015fahit olan zarif, orta ya\u015fl\u0131, siyah redingotlu, \u015fapkal\u0131 zarif bir madam h\u0131\u00e7k\u0131rarak g\u00f6zya\u015f\u0131 d\u00f6ken elma yanakl\u0131 k\u0131zca\u011f\u0131z\u0131n yan\u0131na gitti; \u201cBurada ne yap\u0131yorsun? Anan-baban yok mu?\u201d diye sorar sormaz, ufakl\u0131k kirli parmaklar\u0131yla Arnavut kald\u0131r\u0131m\u0131nda \u015fark\u0131 s\u00f6yleyen kad\u0131n\u0131 i\u015faret etti. Otuzundaki \u015fark\u0131c\u0131, \u201cNereye gitsem yan\u0131mda ta\u015f\u0131yorum, sanki bir zincirmi\u015f gibi, b\u00fcy\u00fck ac\u0131m\u0131!\u201d s\u00f6zlerini gayet kafiyeli bir \u015fekilde okuyordu ki, \u00e7ocu\u011fu al\u0131p kendisinin kar\u015f\u0131s\u0131na dikilen matmazelin gazab\u0131na u\u011frad\u0131! All\u0131 pullu, hafif makyajl\u0131 bu g\u00fczide sesli \u015fark\u0131c\u0131 araba far\u0131 g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015f tav\u015fan misali kalakald\u0131! Matmazel ise \u00e7ocu\u011fu g\u00f6stererek, \u201cE\u011fer annesiyseniz, as\u0131lmak i\u00e7in bir ipi bile hak etmiyorsunuz!\u201d diyerek h\u00e2dise mahallinden uzakla\u015ft\u0131. Belki bu kadar sunturlu konu\u015fmasa iyiydi amma olan olmu\u015ftu. Anne ile k\u0131z \u00e7ocu\u011fu yine ba\u015f ba\u015fa kalm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. \u015eark\u0131 s\u00f6ylemek i\u00e7in ba\u015fka yere gitmek l\u00e2z\u0131md\u0131… Ya\u015fananlar s\u0131rad\u0131\u015f\u0131 de\u011fildi; tabi\u00ee \u00f6yle kolay unutulacak bir \u015fey de denemez. K\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck \u00e7ocu\u011fun ak\u0131betine dair ipu\u00e7lar\u0131 burada… Bahis etti\u011fimiz \u201cSer\u00e7e\u201d, anas\u0131n\u0131n yolundan giderek tarihin \u201cefsane\u201d olarak hat\u0131rlayaca\u011f\u0131 bir fig\u00fcr olacakt\u0131!<\/p>\n
Anne\u2019nin (Anetta Maillard) sesi g\u00fczeldi, \u00e7ocu\u011funun babas\u0131 askerdi ve \u00e7ocu\u011funa yaln\u0131z bakmas\u0131 gerekiyordu. Vurdumduymazl\u0131\u011f\u0131 ve hoyratl\u0131\u011f\u0131 y\u00fcz\u00fcnden k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck k\u0131z\u0131 t\u00fcrl\u00fc hastal\u0131klar\u0131n pen\u00e7esinde k\u0131vran\u0131yordu. T\u00e2 ki baba gelip ac\u0131nacak h\u00e2li g\u00f6rene kadar. Baba (Louis Gassion) da ufakl\u0131\u011fa bakamad\u0131; onu annesinin ta\u015fradaki genelevine b\u0131rakt\u0131. Kald\u0131r\u0131m Ser\u00e7esi\u2019ne orospular bakt\u0131. Onu evlatlar\u0131 gibi sahiplendiler. Yaratan, genelevdeki kad\u0131nlara bir l\u00fctuf olarak g\u00fcnahs\u0131z k\u0131z \u00e7ocu\u011funu g\u00f6nderdi. Bu herkes i\u00e7in \u201ciyi bir \u015feyler\u201d yapma f\u0131rsat\u0131yd\u0131. Onu y\u0131kad\u0131lar, giydirdiler, yedirdiler, gezdirdiler, birlikte \u015fark\u0131 s\u00f6ylediler; hatta okuma yazmay\u0131 bile s\u00f6kt\u00fcrd\u00fcler… Edith\u2019in derin mahzunlu\u011fu, genelevdeki kad\u0131nlara \u00f6yle bir tesir etti ki, baz\u0131s\u0131 daha fazla o kirli i\u015fi yapamayaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 il\u00e2n etti. Her \u015feye ra\u011fmen m\u00fcspet \u015feyler ya\u015fan\u0131yordu, Louis geri d\u00f6n\u00fcp k\u0131z\u0131n\u0131 zorla Paris\u2019e g\u00f6t\u00fcrene kadar. Babal\u0131k, esnek bir v\u00fccuda sahipti, askerlik yapmadan evvel sirklerde \u00e7al\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Kaderi taraf\u0131ndan bir oraya bir buraya savrulan Edith\u2019in bu t\u00fcr meziyetleri yoktu. Tek bir meziyeti vard\u0131, onun da hokkabazl\u0131kla, cambazl\u0131kla bir al\u00e2kas\u0131 yoktu!<\/p>\n
Edith Piaf yirmi ya\u015f\u0131na kadar kald\u0131r\u0131mlarda \u015fark\u0131 s\u00f6yledi, bazen Parislilerin pervas\u0131z laubali s\u00f6zlerini i\u015fitti, bazen de yere-g\u00f6\u011fe s\u0131\u011fmayan iltifatlar\u0131n\u0131… Louis Leplee (1935) isimli kalantor say\u0131labilecek, gazino sahibi bir adam, soka\u011f\u0131n k\u00f6\u015fesinden yank\u0131lanan g\u00fczide bir ses i\u015fitti. Arabas\u0131n\u0131 park ettikten sonra o g\u00fczel \u015fark\u0131y\u0131 yak\u0131ndan dinlemek i\u00e7in Edith\u2019in yan\u0131na gitti; adeta bir k\u00e2\u015fif edas\u0131yla… \u00a0Edith\u2019e \u201cPiaf\u201d yani \u201cSer\u00e7e\u201d l\u00e2kab\u0131n\u0131 da bu adam takm\u0131\u015ft\u0131 ve y\u0131ld\u0131z\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fc ilk an akl\u0131na \u015fu \u00fc\u00e7 kelime gelmi\u015fti, \u201c\u0130\u015fte i\u015flenmemi\u015f elmas!\u201d<\/p>\n
Bu tevafuktan sonra Edith Piaf\u2019\u0131n hayat\u0131 tamam\u0131yla de\u011fi\u015fti. \u015e\u00f6hreti \u00f6nce gazinoda, sonra sokaklarda ve daha sonra t\u00fcm \u015fehirde yay\u0131lm\u0131\u015ft\u0131r. La M\u00f4me\u2019nin (\u00e7ocuk) hayat\u0131 ummad\u0131\u011f\u0131 yerlere gelmi\u015ftir; fakat bu muzip gen\u00e7 k\u0131z\u0131n argo ve haz\u0131r cevapl\u0131 olmas\u0131 her zaman ba\u015f\u0131na bel\u00e2 olmu\u015ftur. O ya\u015flarda \u201cdelikanl\u0131\u201d diyebilece\u011fimiz Edith \u015f\u00f6hreti kald\u0131ramad\u0131, patavats\u0131z ve sokaklar\u0131 benimsemi\u015fti. \u0130\u00e7ip i\u00e7ip her yerde \u015fark\u0131 s\u00f6yler, esti\u011fi gibi ya\u015fard\u0131. Bahsettiklerimiz daha hi\u00e7bir \u015feydi, onun \u015fan\u0131 bulundu\u011fu k\u0131tay\u0131 a\u015facakt\u0131… Louis\u2019in esrarengiz bir \u015fekilde \u00f6ld\u00fcr\u00fclmesinden sonra mavi g\u00f6zl\u00fc, g\u00fczide sesli solistimiz bir\u00e7ok k\u00f6t\u00fc s\u00f6zle kar\u015f\u0131 kar\u015f\u0131ya kalacakt\u0131. \u201cOrospu\u201d, \u201ckatil\u201d, \u201ch\u0131rs\u0131z\u201d ve sair hakaretler olur olmad\u0131k kulaklar\u0131nda bitiyordu.<\/p>\n
Hakikaten bir adam yahut bir kad\u0131n, \u00f6yle bir kar\u015f\u0131m\u0131za \u00e7\u0131kar ki, hayat\u0131m\u0131z bir anda de\u011fi\u015fiverir. Kahraman\u0131m\u0131z m\u0131 yoksa Azrailimiz mi olacak anlayamay\u0131z. Edith\u2019in de kar\u015f\u0131s\u0131na Raymond Asso denilen bir adam \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131. Kaderinin y\u00fck\u00fc alt\u0131nda buru\u015fmu\u015f bu kad\u0131n zor da olsa kendini bu adam\u0131n kollar\u0131na b\u0131rakt\u0131, erke\u011fi taraf\u0131ndan e\u011fitildi, telaffuz ve sahne dersleri ald\u0131. Hatta Raymond bir keresinde, \u201cHayat yok sende, boks\u00f6r gibisin, yetenekli ama sokak kavgalar\u0131yla yetinen… Sahne bir b\u00fct\u00fcnd\u00fcr, her \u015feyinle dikkat \u00e7ekmelisin!\u201d demi\u015ftir.<\/p>\n
Edith sadece bir erke\u011fi sevmedi, Raymond ile tan\u0131\u015fmadan evvel de birine inanm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Ayda birka\u00e7 kez g\u00f6rebildi\u011fi Marcelle isimli bebe\u011fi iki ya\u015f\u0131nda menenjitten \u00f6lm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fcr. \u0130kinci D\u00fcnya Sava\u015f\u0131\u2019n\u0131n bitmesinden sonra Amerika\u2019da sahne alan Piaf bir yandan da d\u00f6nemin ehemmiyetli boks\u00f6rlerinden Marcel Cerdan ile a\u015fk ya\u015f\u0131yordu. Hatta hayat\u0131n\u0131n a\u015fk\u0131 bu adamd\u0131 diyebiliriz.<\/p>\n
New York\u2019ta bir turne i\u00e7in bulunan Piaf, Marcel\u2019i yan\u0131na gelmesi i\u00e7in ikna etmi\u015ftir, Cerdan, Paris\u2019ten New York\u2019a hareket eden u\u00e7a\u011fa binmi\u015ftir. Air France u\u00e7ak kazas\u0131nda otuz yedi yolcu, on bir m\u00fcrettebat bulunuyordu, hepsi \u00f6ld\u00fc. Edith ruh\u00ee bunal\u0131ma girdi, bir\u00e7ok hastal\u0131k da pe\u015finde geldi, evvelinde trafik kazas\u0131 ge\u00e7irip omurili\u011finden hasar alm\u0131\u015ft\u0131 zaten. Piaf, karaci\u011ferindeki hastal\u0131k sebebiyle \u00f6ld\u00fc. Charles Aznavour\u2019u o me\u015fhur etti. 10 Ekim 1963\u2019te Paris\u2019in \u00fcnl\u00fc Pere Lachaise Mezarl\u0131\u011f\u0131\u2019nda y\u00fczbinlerce insan\u0131n kat\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131 bir cenaze t\u00f6reniyle defnedildi\u011finde Charles da oradayd\u0131 ve \u015f\u00f6yle demi\u015fti: \u201cII. D\u00fcnya Sava\u015f\u0131\u2019n\u0131n bitmesinin ard\u0131ndan ger\u00e7ekle\u015fen kutlamalardan sonra ya\u015fanan en b\u00fcy\u00fck kalabal\u0131k!\u201d Kald\u0131r\u0131m Ser\u00e7esi\u2019nin hayat\u0131 bir \u015fark\u0131yd\u0131, ba\u015flad\u0131 ve bitti. H\u00e2l\u00e2 m\u0131r\u0131ldananlar\u0131 duyabiliyoruz.<\/p>\n
Ayl\u0131k Dergisi 184. Say\u0131, Ocak 2020<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
Belleville Bulvar\u0131\u2019nda (Paris, 1918)\u2019de bir kad\u0131n, Arnavut kald\u0131r\u0131ml\u0131 k\u00f6\u015fe ba\u015f\u0131nda \u015fark\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 s\u00f6yleyedursun… Paris sokaklar\u0131n\u0131n portresi aynen \u015f\u00f6yledir: \u201c\u00d6yle sokaklar var ki, \u015ferefsizlikle damgalanan bir insan kadar haysiyetleri k\u0131r\u0131kt\u0131r. Sonra kibar…<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[20],"tags":[],"ppma_author":[14,18],"class_list":["post-838","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-yazarlar","author-admin","author-oguz-can-sahin","no-post-thumbnail"],"yoast_head":"\n