{"id":830,"date":"2019-12-01T11:27:09","date_gmt":"2019-12-01T11:27:09","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.aylikdergisi.com\/?p=830"},"modified":"2025-02-21T11:28:45","modified_gmt":"2025-02-21T11:28:45","slug":"ceset","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.aylikdergisi.com\/index.php\/2019\/12\/01\/ceset\/","title":{"rendered":"Ceset"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><em>\u201cRuhunun hi\u00e7 ya\u015flanmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131, hep ayn\u0131 oldu\u011funu biliyordu; p\u00f6rs\u00fcyen ve \u00e7\u00fcr\u00fcyen bedeniydi.\u201d<\/em><\/p>\n<p>Otob\u00fcste yol yorgunu kad\u0131n, adam\u0131n omzuna ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 yaslam\u0131\u015f dalg\u0131n g\u00f6zlerle \u00f6n\u00fcndeki koltu\u011fun arka k\u0131sm\u0131na bak\u0131yordu. Sonra birden ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 kald\u0131rd\u0131, ayn\u0131 \u015fekilde dalg\u0131n g\u00f6zlerle camdan d\u0131\u015far\u0131y\u0131 seyreden adam\u0131n kula\u011f\u0131na e\u011fildi: \u201cSeni seviyorum!\u201d dedi. Adam\u0131n y\u00fcz\u00fcnde memnun bir tebess\u00fcm belirdi. Gen\u00e7 kad\u0131n\u0131n elini ald\u0131 ve kalbinin \u00fcst\u00fcne koydu. O da kad\u0131n\u0131n kula\u011f\u0131na: \u201cBen de; fakat sana kalbimdekileri anlatacak kelimeleri hen\u00fcz bulamad\u0131m.\u201d dedi.<\/p>\n<p>Kad\u0131n\u0131n kalbinden tatl\u0131 \u00fcrpertiler ge\u00e7ti, bir ba\u015fka atmaya ba\u015flad\u0131 kalbi. Hen\u00fcz bir senelik evlilikleri vard\u0131. Tatillerinde kad\u0131n\u0131n memleketinde anne baba ziyaretine gitmi\u015f ve \u015fimdi evlerine d\u00f6n\u00fcyorlard\u0131.<\/p>\n<p><strong>Pazartesi<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>Yata\u011f\u0131n \u00fczerinde oturmu\u015f, pencereden d\u0131\u015far\u0131 bakarken bu eski hat\u0131ray\u0131 hat\u0131rlayan adam, bunlar\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcrken hi\u00e7bir bir \u015fey hissetmedi. Kar\u0131s\u0131 ile aras\u0131nda bu kadar y\u0131l boyunca bu t\u00fcrden ba\u015fka bir konu\u015fma olmu\u015f muydu, hat\u0131rlam\u0131yordu. \u0130\u015fe gitmek i\u00e7in haz\u0131rland\u0131. Kar\u0131s\u0131n\u0131n her gece haz\u0131rlay\u0131p koydu\u011fu g\u00f6mle\u011fini giydi. Aynan\u0131n kar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda kravat\u0131n\u0131 ba\u011flad\u0131. Ceketini giydikten sonra aynada son bir defa kendine bakt\u0131. Adam hi\u00e7 \u015fa\u015fmaz bir \u015fekilde, her sabah bu giysileri y\u0131kanm\u0131\u015f, \u00fct\u00fclenmi\u015f ve ask\u0131da haz\u0131r bir \u015fekilde bulur, ayn\u0131 s\u0131ra ile giyer ve kahvalt\u0131 yapmadan evden \u00e7\u0131kard\u0131. Sabahlar\u0131 evde kahvalt\u0131 yapmak gibi bir \u00e2deti yoktu.<\/p>\n<p>Caddeye \u00e7\u0131kmadan evvel mezarl\u0131\u011f\u0131n yan\u0131 s\u0131ra y\u00fcr\u00fcd\u00fc. Her sabah ayn\u0131 mezar ta\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 okumas\u0131na ra\u011fmen sanki bu eski mezarl\u0131kta yeni bir \u015fey g\u00f6recekmi\u015f gibi mezar ta\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 okurdu. Soka\u011f\u0131n k\u00f6\u015fesine geldi\u011finde kendisine pastaneden birka\u00e7 po\u011fa\u00e7a ve bayiden bir gazete ald\u0131. Otob\u00fcse binmek i\u00e7in dura\u011fa do\u011fru y\u00fcr\u00fcd\u00fc. Maddi imk\u00e2n\u0131 olmas\u0131na ra\u011fmen toplu ta\u015f\u0131ma kullan\u0131yordu. Zaten evi ile i\u015fi aras\u0131ndaki mesafe \u00e7ok de\u011fildi.<\/p>\n<p>Adam b\u00fcy\u00fck bir bankan\u0131n Levent \u015fube m\u00fcd\u00fcr\u00fcyd\u00fc. G\u00fcvenli\u011fe selam verirken adama nas\u0131l oldu\u011funu sordu. G\u00fcvenlik te\u015fekk\u00fcr etti ve iyi oldu\u011funu s\u00f6yledi. Asl\u0131nda g\u00fcvenli\u011fin cevab\u0131 adam\u0131n hi\u00e7 umurunda de\u011fildi. \u00c2detten oldu\u011fu i\u00e7in soruyordu. Ve bir g\u00fcn g\u00fcvenlik bo\u015fand\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 veya babas\u0131n\u0131n vefat etti\u011fini s\u00f6ylese o yine hi\u00e7bir \u015fey olmam\u0131\u015f gibi ge\u00e7ip gidecekti.<\/p>\n<p>\u00c2deti \u00fczere b\u00fct\u00fcn \u00e7al\u0131\u015fanlardan \u00f6nce gelir, etrafa bir kez bakar, d\u00fczensiz bir \u015fey g\u00f6r\u00fcrse \u00e7al\u0131\u015fanlara s\u00f6ylemek \u00fczere akl\u0131n\u0131n bir k\u00f6\u015fesine kaydederdi. \u015ea\u015fmaz bir d\u00fczen kurmu\u015ftu kendine. Bir bankan\u0131n i\u015fleyi\u015fi ne kadar dakikse, o da kendini bu dakikli\u011fe uydurmu\u015ftu. Her i\u015f g\u00fcn\u00fc, bir di\u011ferinden zerre kadar \u015fa\u015fmayan bir d\u00fczen i\u00e7erisinde \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yordu. De\u011fi\u015fen sadece rakamlard\u0131. \u015eu s\u00fcrekli, delirmi\u015f\u00e7esine \u00e7\u0131rp\u0131n\u0131r gibi kendini biraz daha ileri atmak isteyen d\u00fcnyay\u0131 ve insanlar\u0131n zihinlerini ele ge\u00e7irmeye kararl\u0131 rakamlar\u2026<\/p>\n<p>Kahvesinden ilk yudumu ald\u0131\u011f\u0131nda \u00f6n\u00fcndeki gazetedeki ba\u015fl\u0131k g\u00f6z\u00fcne ili\u015fti: \u201cFinans Piyasalar\u0131nda B\u00fcy\u00fck Kriz\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Bir iki saniye kadar bunun kendisini ve bankada \u00e7al\u0131\u015fanlar\u0131 ne kadar etkileyece\u011fini d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc. Sanki kendisine biri taraf\u0131ndan hi\u00e7 umursamad\u0131\u011f\u0131 bir \u015fey s\u00f6ylenmi\u015f gibi omuzlar\u0131n\u0131 silkti ve di\u011fer sayfaya ge\u00e7ti.<\/p>\n<p>Ak\u015fam evde kendi koltu\u011funa oturmu\u015f ayn\u0131 gazetede ayn\u0131 haberleri okurken kar\u0131s\u0131n\u0131n kendisi i\u00e7in haz\u0131rlad\u0131\u011f\u0131 meyve taba\u011f\u0131ndan itina ile soyulup haz\u0131rlanm\u0131\u015f meyvelerden yiyordu.<\/p>\n<p>Adam\u0131n hayat\u0131 olduk\u00e7a basitti. Sade giyinir, sade ya\u015far, sade d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fc. Kafas\u0131n\u0131 derinden derine me\u015fgul edecek hi\u00e7bir \u015feyle u\u011fra\u015fmazd\u0131. Kar\u0131s\u0131 teklif etmese ak\u015famlar\u0131 da d\u0131\u015far\u0131 \u00e7\u0131kmazd\u0131. Bu bak\u0131mdan ideal bir kocayd\u0131. Kar\u0131s\u0131 ise kendisine g\u00f6re k\u0131p\u0131r k\u0131p\u0131r say\u0131l\u0131rd\u0131. Onlar\u0131nki z\u0131tlar\u0131n birlikteli\u011fi gibi bir \u015feydi. E\u011fer bir plan yap\u0131lacaksa b\u00fct\u00fcn bu i\u015fler kar\u0131s\u0131 taraf\u0131ndan \u00e7ekip \u00e7evrilirdi. Adam\u0131n hayat\u0131ndaki sadelik belki olmas\u0131 gereken t\u00fcrden bir h\u00e2ldi; fakat o bunu zevklerin ve feti\u015flerin esiri olmaktan \u00e7\u0131karm\u0131\u015fken hayat\u0131nda da sadece tek bir renk varm\u0131\u015f gibi monotonla\u015ft\u0131rm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Bu yeknesakl\u0131k onu da kar\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 da rahats\u0131z etmiyordu. H\u00e2llerinden memnundular. Adam neredeyse kendini bile hissetmez h\u00e2le gelmi\u015fti; fakat bundan bir \u015fik\u00e2yeti oldu\u011fu s\u00f6ylenemezdi.<\/p>\n<p><strong>Sal\u0131 <\/strong><\/p>\n<p>Yataktan ayaklar\u0131n\u0131 sark\u0131tt\u0131 ve kendine gelmek i\u00e7in biraz yatakta oturdu. Banyoda elini y\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc y\u0131kad\u0131ktan sonra kar\u0131s\u0131n\u0131n geceden haz\u0131rlay\u0131p koydu\u011fu g\u00f6mle\u011fini giydi. Aynan\u0131n kar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda kravat\u0131n\u0131 ba\u011flad\u0131. Ceketini giydikten sonra aynada son bir defa kendine bakt\u0131. B\u00fct\u00fcn bunlar\u0131 bir kedi sessizli\u011fi i\u00e7inde yapard\u0131. Adam hi\u00e7 \u015fa\u015fmaz bir \u015fekilde her sabah yapt\u0131klar\u0131n\u0131 yapt\u0131. D\u0131\u015far\u0131 \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131, yine caddeye \u00e7\u0131kmadan evvel mezarl\u0131k boyunca y\u00fcr\u00fcd\u00fc ve mezarl\u0131k boyunca mezar ta\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 okudu. Tam k\u00f6\u015feyi d\u00f6nmek \u00fczereyken durdu ve be\u015f alt\u0131 ad\u0131m geri y\u00fcr\u00fcd\u00fc, y\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc mezarl\u0131\u011fa d\u00f6nd\u00fc ve \u00f6ylece dikildi. Neredeyse nefret etti\u011fi birini g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015f\u00e7esine kar\u015f\u0131s\u0131ndaki mezar ta\u015f\u0131na bakt\u0131. Bakt\u0131, bakt\u0131, bakt\u0131\u2026<\/p>\n<p>B\u00fct\u00fcn g\u00fcn akl\u0131ndan \u00e7\u0131kmayan bir sahne h\u00e2linde kar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda o mezar ta\u015f\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcyordu. S\u00fcrekli onu d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcyor, \u00f6n\u00fcne gelen bir evraka imza atarken bile o mezar ta\u015f\u0131 g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcn \u00f6n\u00fcne geliyordu.<\/p>\n<p>Ak\u015fam evde kendi koltu\u011funa oturmu\u015f gazetede ayn\u0131 haberleri okurken kar\u0131s\u0131n\u0131n kendisi i\u00e7in haz\u0131rlad\u0131\u011f\u0131 meyvelerden yiyordu. Kar\u0131s\u0131 ona yemek sofras\u0131nda bir\u00e7ok \u015fey anlatm\u0131\u015ft\u0131; ama bunlar \u00e7oktan akl\u0131ndan \u00e7\u0131k\u0131p gitmi\u015fti. Gazetenin ikinci sayfas\u0131ndaki b\u00fcy\u00fck ba\u015fl\u0131\u011fa donmu\u015f g\u00f6zlerle bak\u0131yordu. Asl\u0131nda ba\u015fl\u0131\u011fa de\u011fil ba\u015fl\u0131\u011f\u0131n ilk kelimesinin ilk harfine bak\u0131yordu. H\u00e2l\u00e2 o mezar ta\u015f\u0131 vard\u0131 akl\u0131nda.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cHayat\u0131m!\u201d dedi kar\u0131s\u0131 izledi\u011fi filmden bak\u0131\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 kocas\u0131na \u00e7evirerek, \u201cBeni d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcnde ilk akl\u0131na gelen \u015fey ne?\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cAdam nereden \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131 bu soru?\u201d bile demedi, hafif a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 indirdi\u011fi gazetenin \u00fcst\u00fcnden kar\u0131s\u0131na m\u00fc\u015ffik bir tebess\u00fcm g\u00f6nderdi. Bir iki saniye d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc ve \u201c\u0130lk i\u00e7ti\u011fim sigara!\u201d dedi. Kad\u0131n \u00e7ok daha farkl\u0131 \u015feyler bekliyordu; fakat i\u00e7indeki hayal k\u0131r\u0131kl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 mimiklerine aksettirmedi.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cSigara?\u201d dedi, kad\u0131nlara has o sorgulayan ses tonuyla. B\u00f6yle bir vurguyu bir kad\u0131n\u0131n a\u011fz\u0131ndan duydu\u011funuzda daha fazla a\u00e7\u0131klama yapman\u0131z gerekir, hem de iyi bir a\u00e7\u0131klama, yoksa nereye gidece\u011fini bilmedi\u011finiz bir tart\u0131\u015fma ile hayat\u0131n\u0131z\u0131n k\u00e2buslar\u0131ndan birini ya\u015fayabilirsiniz. Fakat adam\u0131n hi\u00e7bir zaman bu t\u00fcrden bir endi\u015fesi olmam\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Tekrar kar\u0131s\u0131na g\u00fcl\u00fcmseyen y\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc g\u00f6sterdi gazetenin \u00fcst\u00fcnden.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cEvet, sigara.\u201d dedi.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cNi\u00e7in?\u201d diye sorarken tatl\u0131 ve g\u00fczel kar\u0131s\u0131n\u0131n kalbi ezilmi\u015fti. Sanki biri y\u00fcre\u011fini avucuna alm\u0131\u015f s\u0131k\u0131yordu.<\/p>\n<p>\u201c\u0130lk i\u00e7ti\u011fim sigarada ba\u015f\u0131m d\u00f6nm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc, seni ilk g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcmde de.\u201d diye cevap verdi adam.<\/p>\n<p>Kad\u0131n g\u00f6zlerine h\u00fccum eden ve onu neredeyse aptal bir y\u00fcz ifadesine \u00e7eviren sevin\u00e7 g\u00f6zya\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 zor zapt etti. Kocas\u0131 kendisine do\u011frudan iltifat etmi\u015f olsa bu kadar hislenmezdi. Kalbinden ya\u011f gibi bir \u015feyler ak\u0131p gitti. \u0130\u00e7i bir tuhaf olmu\u015ftu. \u0130\u015fte etraftan hep duydu\u011fu; ama kad\u0131n\u0131n asla ald\u0131r\u0131\u015f etmedi\u011fi kocas\u0131na y\u00f6neltilen \u201c\u00e7ok so\u011fuk biri\u201d laf\u0131n\u0131 bir \u00e7\u0131rp\u0131da \u00e7\u00f6pe atacak bir \u00e2nd\u0131 bu. Apartmandaki hangi kad\u0131n\u0131n kocas\u0131 aptal sevgi c\u00fcmlelerinin haricinde b\u00f6yle bir c\u00fcmle kurabilirdi.<\/p>\n<p>Adam art\u0131k sigara i\u00e7miyordu; ama bu s\u00f6zlerinde son derece samimiydi. En tabi\u00ee h\u00e2liyle hi\u00e7 zorlamadan s\u00f6ylemi\u015fti bunlar\u0131.<\/p>\n<p>Bir a\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131n g\u00f6zlerine b\u0131rak\u0131lsa asla unutulmayacak bir tebess\u00fcm b\u0131rakt\u0131 adam\u0131n g\u00f6zlerine. Adam bu s\u0131cak tebess\u00fcm\u00fc bak\u0131\u015flar\u0131 ile kabul etti. Ama bunu hemen unuttu.<\/p>\n<p><strong>\u00c7ar\u015famba<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>Yataktan ayaklar\u0131n\u0131 sark\u0131tt\u0131 ve kendine gelmek i\u00e7in biraz yatakta oturdu. Kar\u015f\u0131da kar\u0131s\u0131n\u0131n makyaj masas\u0131n\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcnde duran aynada kendine bakt\u0131. Kendini bir kenara b\u0131rak\u0131p aynan\u0131n \u015fekline bak\u0131nca akl\u0131na mezar ta\u015f\u0131 geldi. Ayna da mezar ta\u015f\u0131 \u015feklindeydi. Bir an nefret etti aynan\u0131n \u015feklinden. Onun neyin par\u00e7as\u0131 oldu\u011funu d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcnce bir evde makyaj masas\u0131 diye bir \u015feyin olmas\u0131n\u0131 sa\u00e7ma buldu.<\/p>\n<p>Surat\u0131 bir kar\u0131\u015f, mezarl\u0131ktan yana bakmadan yol boyu y\u00fcr\u00fcd\u00fc. Ama tam da o mezar ta\u015f\u0131n\u0131n yan\u0131na gelince dayanamay\u0131p o tarafa bakt\u0131. Ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 iki yana sallad\u0131 ve yoluna devam etti. Po\u011fa\u00e7alar\u0131n\u0131 ve gazetesini ald\u0131. Bankadan i\u00e7eri girmeden gazeteye bakmazd\u0131. Man\u015fet dikkatini \u00e7ekti: \u201cAnkara\u2019n\u0131n G\u00f6be\u011finde Cinayet!\u201d Neresiydi acaba bu Ankara\u2019n\u0131n g\u00f6be\u011fi? Dura\u011fa gelir gelmez otob\u00fcs\u00fc de geldi, birdenbire kendini en \u00f6nde bulmu\u015ftu. Bindi, kart\u0131n\u0131 okuttu, bir ad\u0131m att\u0131 ve k\u0131sa boylu bir kad\u0131n\u0131n bo\u015f yer arama tela\u015f\u0131yla kendisini itelemesine maruz kald\u0131. Kad\u0131n o kadar hareketliydi ki, adam sanki teslim oluyormu\u015f gibi, ellerini yukar\u0131 kald\u0131rd\u0131. \u0130\u015fin tuhaf taraf\u0131 bug\u00fcn ziyadesiyle bo\u015f yer vard\u0131, kad\u0131n birden fazla bo\u015f koltuk g\u00f6r\u00fcnce ilk y\u00f6neldi\u011finden vazge\u00e7ti, di\u011ferine at\u0131ld\u0131, onu da be\u011fenmedi cam kenar\u0131ndaki bir koltu\u011fa kendini att\u0131. Herkes kendine bir yer buldu\u011funda sadece kad\u0131n\u0131n yan\u0131ndaki koltuk bo\u015f kald\u0131. Adam bu kendisi i\u00e7in imk\u00e2ns\u0131z bir \u015feymi\u015f gibi, bir bo\u015f koltu\u011fa bir kad\u0131na bakt\u0131. Arka tarafa giderek ayakta yolculuk etmeyi tercih etti. Kad\u0131n topa\u00e7 gibi, diye d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc. Bu koltuklar\u0131n bu kadar de\u011ferli oldu\u011funu hi\u00e7 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnmemi\u015fti. Hemen hi\u00e7bir zaman hayat\u0131nda b\u00f6yle mevzularda m\u00fccadele i\u00e7inde olmam\u0131\u015ft\u0131. D\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnsenize sabah kalkt\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131zda b\u00fct\u00fcn heves, gayret ve aksiyonunuz otob\u00fcste bo\u015f yer bulabilmek. Adam bunu baya\u011f\u0131 bir \u015fey olarak g\u00f6rm\u00fcyordu, sadece buna dair hi\u00e7bir d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcncesi olmam\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Hatta onun hemen hi\u00e7bir \u015feye dair d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcncesi yoktu. O art\u0131k nas\u0131l oldu\u011funu bilmedi\u011fi, sadece s\u00fcrd\u00fcrmek i\u00e7in baz\u0131 \u015feyler yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131 bir hayat\u0131 ya\u015f\u0131yordu.<\/p>\n<p>Bankada masas\u0131n\u0131n ba\u015f\u0131nda oturmu\u015f, \u00f6n\u00fcnde a\u00e7\u0131k duran gazeteye bakmadan \u00f6ylece oturuyordu. Kahvesi \u00e7oktan so\u011fumu\u015ftu. Akl\u0131na bir \u00e7ivi gibi saplanm\u0131\u015f o mezar ta\u015f\u0131n\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcyordu. B\u00fct\u00fcn g\u00fcn zihnini me\u015fgul etti bu.<\/p>\n<p>Ak\u015fam koltu\u011funa oturdu\u011funda kar\u0131s\u0131 ona kuruyemi\u015f taba\u011f\u0131 ve bir bardak \u00e7ay getirdi. Adam barda\u011fa bakt\u0131, ak\u015famlar\u0131 \u00e7ay i\u00e7mezlerdi; ama buna itiraz etmedi. Kad\u0131n kocas\u0131n\u0131n o her ak\u015fam biteviye bir \u015fekilde gazetesine g\u00f6m\u00fclmesine al\u0131\u015f\u0131k olarak mutlu bir \u015fekilde televizyonunu izlerdi. Fakat adam\u0131n gazeteye de\u011fil, dizlerinin \u00fcst\u00fcndeki bo\u015flu\u011fa bakt\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcnce bir tuhafl\u0131k oldu\u011funu sezdi.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cNe oldu hayat\u0131m, neyin var?\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Adam kar\u0131s\u0131na bakmadan,<\/p>\n<p>\u201cMezar ta\u015f\u0131n\u0131 k\u0131rm\u0131\u015flar.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cHangi mezar ta\u015f\u0131n\u0131?\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cYol \u00fcst\u00fcndeki mezarl\u0131kta, duvar kenar\u0131ndaki ta\u015flardan birini k\u0131rm\u0131\u015flar.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cKim yapar b\u00f6yle bir \u015feyi? Vicdans\u0131zl\u0131k. Ama ben de tan\u0131d\u0131\u011f\u0131n birinin bir mezar ta\u015f\u0131 zannettim.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cFark eder mi?\u201d dedi, adam. Bunu s\u00f6ylerken \u00e7ok d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnmeden s\u00f6ylemi\u015fti. Kar\u0131s\u0131, \u201cNi\u00e7in umurunda?\u201d dese ona verebilece\u011fi bir cevab\u0131 yoktu.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cAman can\u0131m, bo\u015f ver.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cHayat\u0131m!\u201d dedi kad\u0131n s\u0131cak ve tatl\u0131 bir \u015fekilde, \u201cArt\u0131k bir \u00e7ocu\u011fumuz olsun mu?\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cOlsun tabi\u00ee\u201d dedi adam hi\u00e7 yad\u0131rgamadan, aniden s\u00f6ylenmi\u015f b\u00f6yle m\u00fchim bir s\u00f6ze kar\u015f\u0131l\u0131k. Sanki \u201cYar\u0131n sahile gezmeye gidelim mi?\u201d diye sormu\u015ftu kar\u0131s\u0131.<\/p>\n<p><strong>Per\u015fembe<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>G\u00f6zlerini a\u00e7t\u0131 ve bir k\u0131y\u0131s\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131k kalm\u0131\u015f pencereden d\u0131\u015far\u0131 bakt\u0131. Hemen kalkmad\u0131. G\u00f6zlerini o noktaya sabitlemi\u015f g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fc r\u00fcyay\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcyordu. Mezar ta\u015f\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc r\u00fcyas\u0131nda. Art\u0131k r\u00fcyalar\u0131na girecek kadar onu me\u015fgul ediyordu. Bir kere bile \u201cAman, can\u0131m bana ne!\u201d dememi\u015fti. Elini y\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc y\u0131kad\u0131. Aynada surat\u0131na bakt\u0131, sa\u011f eliyle y\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc s\u0131vazlad\u0131. Ve ilk defa t\u0131ra\u015f olmadan evden d\u0131\u015far\u0131 \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131.<\/p>\n<p>Bir \u00e2n da olsa yolunu de\u011fi\u015ftirmeyi ve mezarl\u0131\u011f\u0131n oradan ge\u00e7memeyi d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc. Sonra kendi kendisine k\u0131zd\u0131. Kendisini o kadar da buna kapt\u0131ramazd\u0131. Yol boyu y\u00fcr\u00fcd\u00fc ve tam mezar ta\u015f\u0131n\u0131n orada durdu. Neredeyse duyulacak kadar bir sesle \u201cNi\u00e7in sanki tamir etmiyorlar \u015funu!\u201d diye m\u0131r\u0131ldand\u0131. Adam\u0131 rahats\u0131z eden \u015fey mezar ta\u015f\u0131n\u0131n k\u0131r\u0131lm\u0131\u015f olmas\u0131ndan \u00e7ok art\u0131k \u00fczerindeki ismi tam olarak okuyamamas\u0131yd\u0131. Mezar ta\u015f\u0131nda \u201c\u2026.i G\u00fcng\u00f6rmez\u201d yaz\u0131yordu art\u0131k. \u00c7ok derin bir derdi varm\u0131\u015f gibi, bir nefes koyverdi ve yoluna devam etti. Po\u011fa\u00e7as\u0131n\u0131 ald\u0131, gazetesini koltu\u011funun alt\u0131na s\u0131k\u0131\u015ft\u0131rd\u0131 ve dura\u011fa y\u00f6neldi.<\/p>\n<p>Kahvesini i\u00e7iyordu. Veznedar kap\u0131y\u0131 \u00e7al\u0131p i\u00e7eri girdi. Ona d\u00fcnk\u00fc hesaplarla al\u00e2kal\u0131 birtak\u0131m evraklar uzatt\u0131. Adam evraklara bakarken veznedara \u201cBir mezar ta\u015f\u0131 neyi temsil eder sence?\u201d dedi. Veznedar bu soruya hemen cevab vermedi. Verece\u011fi bir cevab\u0131 olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan de\u011fil, bu sorunun nereden icab etti\u011fini d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcnden kar\u015f\u0131l\u0131k vermemi\u015fti. M\u00fcd\u00fcr h\u00e2l\u00e2 \u00f6n\u00fcndeki rakamlara bak\u0131yordu. Veznedar onun cevab\u0131 bekledi\u011fini anlay\u0131nca \u201cTabi\u00ee ki \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fc\u2026\u201d dedi. Adam ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 kald\u0131rd\u0131. Veznedar\u0131n g\u00f6zlerine bakt\u0131. \u201cYani ayn\u0131 zamanda hayat\u0131.\u201d dedi. Veznedar hi\u00e7 de b\u00f6yle bir \u015fey kastetmemi\u015fti; ama m\u00fcd\u00fcr\u00fcn\u00fcn verdi\u011fi kar\u015f\u0131l\u0131k ona tuhaf bir \u015fekilde do\u011fru gibi geldi. Adam evraklar\u0131 veznedara uzatt\u0131. \u201cTamam, bir problem g\u00f6r\u00fcnm\u00fcyor.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Sonra veznedara s\u00f6yledi\u011fi s\u00f6z\u00fc daha yeni idrak ediyormu\u015f gibi, \u00fczerinde d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc. Bir mezar ta\u015f\u0131 hayat\u0131 nas\u0131l temsil edebilirdi? \u0130nsanlara daha ya\u015farlarken \u00f6l\u00fc olduklar\u0131n\u0131 anlatmak i\u00e7in bundan daha tesirli bir yol olamayaca\u011f\u0131na karar verdi. Fakat bunlar \u00e7abucak akl\u0131ndan \u00e7\u0131k\u0131p gitti. Tekrar ta\u015f\u0131n \u00fczerindeki ismi d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnmeye \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131, \u201cBelki de yanl\u0131\u015f yap\u0131yorum.\u201d diye d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc, \u201cBelki de ta\u015f\u0131n \u00fczerindeki isim kad\u0131n.\u201d ismidir.<\/p>\n<p>Ak\u015fam evde kar\u0131s\u0131na bunu sordu, \u201cBana sonu -i- harfi ile biten bir kad\u0131n ismi s\u00f6yleyebilir misin?\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Kad\u0131n b\u00fcy\u00fck bir hevesle a\u011fz\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7t\u0131 ama akl\u0131na hi\u00e7bir \u015fey gelmedi \u201cAllah Allah, nas\u0131l yani -i- ile biten kad\u0131n ismi yok mu? Ebrul\u00ee olur mu, hani \u015fu \u015fark\u0131daki gibi?\u201d Adam kar\u015f\u0131l\u0131k vermedi. B\u00f6yle bir ismi hi\u00e7 duymam\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Hem kar\u0131s\u0131n\u0131n bahsetti\u011fi \u015fark\u0131y\u0131 hat\u0131rlamaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131, fakat akl\u0131na gelmedi.<\/p>\n<p><strong>Cuma<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>Yataktan ayaklar\u0131n\u0131 sark\u0131tt\u0131 ve kendine gelmek i\u00e7in bir m\u00fchlet yatakta oturdu. D\u00f6n\u00fcp derin bir uykuda olan kar\u0131s\u0131na bakt\u0131. \u201c\u0130yi ki makyaj yapm\u0131yor.\u201d diye d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc. Bir sabah erken vakitte g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fc kendi k\u0131z karde\u015fini hat\u0131rlay\u0131nca, her sabah b\u00f6yle bir surat g\u00f6rmedi\u011fi i\u00e7in ne kadar \u015fansl\u0131 oldu\u011funu d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc. Kozmetik\u00e7iler b\u00fct\u00fcn d\u00fcnya boya piyasas\u0131ndan daha fazla para kazan\u0131yor olmal\u0131yd\u0131lar.<\/p>\n<p>Caddeye \u00e7\u0131kmadan evvel mezarl\u0131k boyunca mezar ta\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 okudu. Yine ayn\u0131 mezar ta\u015f\u0131n\u0131n kar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda durdu. \u201c\u015eimdi bu adam yahut kad\u0131n ya\u015fam\u0131\u015f m\u0131yd\u0131?\u201d dedi kendi kendine. \u201cYa ben ya\u015f\u0131yor muyum?\u201d Elinde \u00e7antas\u0131, tak\u0131m elbiseli bu adam\u0131 g\u00f6renler dua da etmeden orada bir heykel gibi duran bu adama bak\u0131p ge\u00e7iyorlard\u0131. Nihayet adam as\u0131k ve d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnceli bir y\u00fczle yoluna devam etti. Pastaneye u\u011frad\u0131, gazetesini de ald\u0131 ve dura\u011fa gitti.<\/p>\n<p>Belki de ilk defa banka g\u00fcvenli\u011finin yan\u0131ndan onun hat\u0131r\u0131n\u0131 sormadan ge\u00e7ti. Kap\u0131dan i\u00e7eri girince bir eksiklik hissetti ve geri d\u00f6n\u00fcp bek\u00e7iye \u201cNas\u0131ls\u0131n?\u201d diye sordu. Ama bu son derece abs\u00fcrt bir manzarayd\u0131. Adam sanki bek\u00e7iye \u201cal hadi\u201d der gibi, unuttu\u011fu borcunu veriyordu. G\u00fcvenlik \u201c\u0130yi misiniz, m\u00fcd\u00fcr bey?\u201d dedi; fakat adam duymam\u0131\u015ft\u0131 bile.<\/p>\n<p>Kahvesi \u00f6n\u00fcne geldi\u011finde g\u00f6zleri tavana kaym\u0131\u015f, akl\u0131ndan bir \u015feyler hesaplad\u0131\u011f\u0131 belli bir y\u00fcz ifadesiyle oturuyordu. Hizmetli kad\u0131n ona bir \u015feyler s\u00f6yledi, ama adam duymad\u0131 bile. Kap\u0131 kapand\u0131\u011f\u0131nda m\u0131r\u0131ldanarak \u201cAli G\u00fcng\u00f6rmez, Veli G\u00fcng\u00f6rmez, Hayri G\u00fcng\u00f6rmez, Sabri G\u00fcng\u00f6rmez\u2026\u201d diye isimler say\u0131yordu.<\/p>\n<p>Mezar ta\u015f\u0131ndaki ismi hat\u0131rlamaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yordu. Fakat bu en m\u00fc\u015fk\u00fcl meseleden daha zormu\u015f gibi kafas\u0131nda d\u00f6n\u00fcp duruyordu. \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc birileri, belki pis bir ayya\u015f mezar ta\u015f\u0131n\u0131n sol k\u00f6\u015fesini k\u0131rm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. \u201cNe diye k\u0131rars\u0131n be adam!\u201d dedi kendi kendine. \u0130sim saymay\u0131 b\u0131raksa da mesai bitene kadar akl\u0131n\u0131 kurcalay\u0131p durdu o isim. Ve nas\u0131l hat\u0131rlayamad\u0131\u011f\u0131na \u015fa\u015f\u0131r\u0131yordu. Bu kadar basit miydi? Birileri gelir mezar ta\u015f\u0131n\u0131 k\u0131rar ve silinir gidersiniz. Neydi adam\u0131n ad\u0131? Adam? Yahut kad\u0131n, her neyse i\u015fte. \u0130smi hat\u0131rlasa rahatlayacakt\u0131.<\/p>\n<p>Ak\u015fam eve geldi\u011finde zili \u00e7almadan evvel bir dakika kap\u0131da bekledi. Nihayet yapmaya zorland\u0131\u011f\u0131 bir i\u015fmi\u015f gibi parma\u011f\u0131n\u0131 d\u00fc\u011fmeye g\u00f6t\u00fcrd\u00fc.<\/p>\n<p>Yemeklerini yedikten sonra adam ve kad\u0131n her zamanki yerlerinde her ak\u015fam sahneledikleri tek perdelik \u201cEvde ak\u015fam vakti\u201d oyununu sergilemeye ba\u015flad\u0131lar. Adam kad\u0131nda bir huzursuzluk, sab\u0131rs\u0131zl\u0131k oldu\u011funu fark etti; ama bir \u015fey s\u00f6ylemedi. O zaten bir \u015fey s\u00f6ylemezdi. \u00c7o\u011fu zaman \u00e7ok m\u00fchim bir \u015feyi birka\u00e7 dakikadan fazla d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnmezdi bile. Mutfaklar\u0131nda k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck \u00e7apl\u0131 bir yang\u0131n \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131\u011f\u0131nda kad\u0131n\u0131n imdad\u0131na ko\u015fmu\u015f so\u011fukkanl\u0131l\u0131kla oca\u011fa m\u00fcdahale etmi\u015f, kar\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 sakinle\u015ftirmi\u015f ve birka\u00e7 dakika sonra sanki b\u00f6yle bir hadise olmam\u0131\u015f gibi her zamanki h\u00e2liyle, ge\u00e7ip koltu\u011funa oturmu\u015ftu. Kar\u0131s\u0131na bak\u0131p bir \u015feyler d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcr gibi oldu. Yine otob\u00fcsteki o hat\u0131ra geldi akl\u0131na, h\u00e2l\u00e2 o s\u00f6z\u00fc tamamlamam\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Kar\u0131s\u0131na o kelimeleri s\u00f6ylememi\u015fti. B\u00fct\u00fcn hayat\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6zden ge\u00e7irdi ve kendi kendine \u201cNe oldu?\u201d dedi. Kastetti\u011fi hayat\u0131yd\u0131, ne olmu\u015ftu hayat\u0131na, kendisine ne olmu\u015ftu, nereye gitmi\u015fti o adam? Kar\u0131s\u0131n\u0131n derin ve sesli bir nefes ald\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 duyunca dalg\u0131n g\u00f6zlerini ona \u00e7evirdi.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cGaliba, hamileyim.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Adam ka\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 kald\u0131rd\u0131. G\u00f6sterdi g\u00f6sterebilece\u011fi en b\u00fcy\u00fck tepki buydu. Sonra tebess\u00fcmle kar\u0131s\u0131na bakt\u0131. Kar\u0131s\u0131 bu bak\u0131\u015f\u0131 biliyordu. Kocas\u0131 mutlu olmu\u015ftu. Adam\u0131n hi\u00e7bir zaman heyecan\u0131n\u0131 b\u00fcy\u00fck tepkiler ve hareketlerle g\u00f6stermedi\u011fini biliyordu. Kad\u0131n derin bir nefes alarak ve neredeyse kom\u015fular\u0131n\u0131n duyabilece\u011fi bir sesle \u201cBir \u00e7ocu\u011fumuz olacak!\u201d dedi.<\/p>\n<p>Adam sadece o odada bir \u00e7ocu\u011fun oldu\u011fu mesud bir \u00e2n\u0131 hayal etti.<\/p>\n<p>Ayl\u0131k Dergisi 183. Say\u0131, Aral\u0131k 2019<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>\u201cRuhunun hi\u00e7 ya\u015flanmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131, hep ayn\u0131 oldu\u011funu biliyordu; p\u00f6rs\u00fcyen ve \u00e7\u00fcr\u00fcyen bedeniydi.\u201d Otob\u00fcste yol yorgunu kad\u0131n, adam\u0131n omzuna ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 yaslam\u0131\u015f dalg\u0131n g\u00f6zlerle \u00f6n\u00fcndeki koltu\u011fun arka k\u0131sm\u0131na bak\u0131yordu. 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